A toast to us, for the ladies that have us, the losers that had us and the ladies that meet us.

So I was sleeping in my room before and my mum walked in and went through my things, she went at it for about 5 minutes which eventually woke me up as the draws were being opened and such. I lay there thinking what is she doing. As I lay there thinking I got a little angry, I thought to myself, yes i've had this conversation with her about her going into my room and shes come back with "I have my right to go into your room and do whatever I want" I let that slide, i've always thought to myself that there is always a line a mother = son can have yet she cannot see it. I mean I do not hide things in my room that would incriminate me but the fact that i've been brought up here and that I have a feeling that personal stuff of mine ie books etc are mine, one has a right to keep them from the public eye. As she left the room I got up thinking, man what should I do now? Go accuse her of going through my stuff? Or just pretend it didnt happen at all? I got out of bed and walked to the kitchen where she was and asked her "What were you doing in my room" and she replies "I was looking for wrapping paper" which was a very weird answer because she asked me previously if I had any to which I replied no. Then since she gave me that answer, I asked her why she did not wake me up to ask her. She took it the wrong way and then thought that I had gotten offended at her going through my stuff and replied "what now i have to ask you to go through your things?" angrily. I got a bit worked up and replied, " you could just of woken me up and asked me" yet she took it the wrong way yet again telling me off about how she's got the right to do anything in the house. This is where I kinda saw the two paths thing where I could of either gotten angry and yelled my lungs out OR be calm and just talk it through no matter what.

 

So I took some sagely advice from a friend and rather then entering a battle of yelling and contradictions with my mother I avoided it. Spoke to her calmly, good news right? But she went on and on and on and I almost felt my determination waiver but, I kept at it, spoke to her calmy, repeated that I did not want to argue time and time again, yet she still was looking for an excuse to yell at me? She got even more cranky when I didn't speak. When I couldn't take her nagging, I calmly said again that I didn't want to argue. Now shes angry at me banging pots and pans around telling me I have to clean my room because its so messy. It's funny how if parents are angry at one thing, a whole new topic out of nowhere comes up and they center their fits of rage on that.

I guess the out come was what I had planned, avoid the yelling and not argue but it's just so hard to communicate with a stubborn person like that, even though I love her very much she has these traits which drives me insane. It's times like this I need my friends the most yet I'm kind of scared and ashamed to ask them for support.

 

What a big sissy I am....

 

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High Jack Tony